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Monday, November 30, 2015

ATTENTION, WE ARE ON RED ALERT, PEOPLE!!

The dreaded day has come...

I knew this was going to happen...

Guys... Don't kill me, but...

I'M OUT OF IDEAS!!!!

It's horrible! I can't think of anything that you guys would enjoy! I am asking a favor from all of you. In the comments below this post, give me your ideas. Tell me anything you'd like to see in a story. Odds are I'll write from it. Please help me, guys!

Ayuda me,
Frenchie

Stay awesome!

Monday, November 9, 2015

The Never Ending Nowhere

Middle of nowhere
In a world that never stops
Daintily teetering
Neither yesterday nor tomorrow
In a world that never stops
Going and going
Hellbound
Teetering on the edge of yesterday and the brink of tomorrow

Midnight silence
On the tail of yesterday
On the wisp of tomorrow
Neither dust nor gold
Loveless and lawless
In a world that never stops
Gone is the day before
However still not the day after
Too dark to tell

Don't believe everything you see
All are liars now
Run as fast as you can
Killers disguised as a
Nice guy
Everyone is out to use you
Some want to abuse you
Some want to see you run away in a dark hour

Midnight
Moonlight
Darkness

Not quite yesterday
But never tomorrow

Friday, October 30, 2015

His Eyes

Oh, so cold
As I beheld his frosty blue eyes
All I saw was cold
Cold
Cold
So, stone, cold

His eyes were cold, frozen
So full of scrutiny
Devoid of feeling
Irises of ice
Soul of snow
Frozen feelings

But I loved his eyes
Beautiful eyes
Mystery eyes
Confusing eyes
His eyes

I wouldn't say I loved him for his eyes
But that was certainly part of why
It was those confusing, closed off eyes
That taught me to see

Friday, October 9, 2015

You Guys Are Awesome!

Wow! I can't believe it! I checked on this blog in some free time today, and I saw it! 1,009 pageviews! You guys are AWESOME!! I can't believe this blog has gone that far already. I'm looking forward to getting to know you guys better and to bring you more writing!

Thanks guys!

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

The Rule of a Ghost King's Crown

I don't know why it's over
But the new age has come and gone
Gone as the green in the now dead clover
Has our hope passed on?

Who can tell when it will start again?
Who knows where it will end?

Why has the world fallen down
Into the rule of a ghost king's crown?
I don't know when we'll find normal
Will we have to resort to paranormal?
Para, para, para, para

Normal----

All around me on these city streets
All that's good and innocent depletes
Oh, so innocent, oh so sweet
Why did hope have to retreat
And leave us broken?

Para, para, para, paranormal

Only our demons know the words left unspoken, spoken, spoken
We're all haunted by ghosts of the past
Until our broken winged angels rescue us at last

Who can tell when it will start again?
Who knows where it will end?

Why has the world fallen down
Into the rule of a ghost king's crown?
I don't know when we'll find normal
Will we have to resort to paranormal?
Para, para, para
Para, para, para

Paranormal----

Friday, August 21, 2015

If You Never Fall At All

It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
Or so they say
For with the loss of love comes the burden of pain
And never loving at all is the avoidance of the post-relationship hurt
Whether it be your best friend or your lover
To lose love hurts more than never loving at all

Love is so much more amazing when you're in it
But hurts so much more when you fall out
When you fall in love, it's easy...to...break
But if your never fall at all it's hard to feel the pain

Not feeling anything at all hurts so...much...less
But never loving is a world without hap...py...ness
If you never fall at all, it's hard to break a bone
But if you fall down and down again
You've lived more and been happier than you've ever been 
If you never fall at all it's hard to break...your...heart
But if you never fall at all, what's the point in stand...ing...tall?

Thursday, August 6, 2015

The Sky is Falling Down

Scars 
Fade
Along with every 
Memory
Light
Fades
Along with every
Dark day
Star
Shade
Falls around me in
Tight waves
Maybe I never
Knew
Why
Oh, why

As the fire falls around me
The world still spirals down, down, down
And society crushes all my dreams
All falling around me, falling down
Maybe one day I'll understand why
The sky is falling down

Maybe I'll teach them all to see
Corrupt is knocking morals down
The world is trying to kill you and me
Da, da, na, na
The sky is falling down

As the fire falls around me
The world still spirals down, down, down
And society crushes all my dreams
All falling around me, falling down
Maybe one day I'll understand why
The sky is falling down

Falling down, falling down
The sky is falling down

And the fire falls around me
The world still spirals down, far down
And society stomps out my dreams
The sky is falling down
No one will understand why
The sky is falling down

Monday, July 6, 2015

Run Through the Sand

Every second stretches longer than it really is
Time ticks far
Too
Slow
Every hour becomes an unconquerable distance

Long time, no see
I can't wait until the time comes

It's like trying to run through sand
The waiting
I can't get any closer than time will let me

Waiting, waiting, waiting
Running, running, running, through the sands of time
Slower, slower, slower
I can't wait
But time says I must

Run through the sand

Monday, June 22, 2015

With Every Scar Comes A Memory

I'm gonna write myself a story
Slow and peacefully
With every scar comes a memory
Slowly fading away from me
I'm gonna reach for what I can see
Each detail spreading like leaves on a tree
I'm gonna write myself a story
And my remembrance becomes cloudy
Everything I've done recalled saltily
I haven't had an original thought lately
Every little thing fading shakily
I'm gonna write myself a story 
And maybe, just maybe,
These scars will be the only thing you see
And maybe you'll see
I haven't, not yet, lost me

Monday, June 15, 2015

Broken Road

Everyone needs a friend
Everyone cannot be alone
Those who wish to wish to be alone
Wish to die
For loneliness is a dark place
Along the broken road

I am an angel
Not of light, nor of dark
But I am an angel
The avenging angel
Locked in a brutal war
With the void of loneliness 
Navigating with the world's forgotten at my side
Along the broken road

I walked through the door
And I found her crying
I went to sit with her
The tears flowed out of her eyes
A waterfall of trapped personality
A bandage was wrapped about her head
Stained red with hour old blood
She could barely move
But she cried
And when you beheld her rich brown eyes
You saw a soul inside
But when you beheld her mind
You saw a brain dead victim
Along the broken road

She needed a friend
Someone to help her
So I stayed 
An angel of gray
Combating the loneliness that came
With those stricken by accidents
I stayed with my hand on her shoulder
Watching her soul in her rich brown eyes
Struggle to stay afloat in her muddled mind
But I had to leave her that I may navigate
Along the broken road

Down the hall I opened another door
To a man that stared
At the wall, his eyes blank
He needed a friend he did not want
He wanted for nothing
His soul was gone
Behind his glassy blue eyes
Was a shattered legacy
He had no will, for it had been splintered
Along the broken road

I stood high above the world
And I watched the girl
Not yet a woman, not yet grown
I watched them grimace at each other 
The truth in their eyes reflecting the grim horror
Their souls could not take
I flew to the girl and I took her hand in mine
But she had no soul to register the gesture of kindness
Her body breathed but she did not
Her body was a slave to their machines
And their medicines
But she was not
As they cried and turned the machines off
I led the girl
Along the broken road

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Music To Your Ears

Some opt for a whiskey lullaby
Some wish to hear a song of heartbreak
Some want to listen, listen to a warbling love ballad
Some don't want to feel anything at all
But all want music to their ears

Some claim they don't dance
But have never found someone to dance with
Some say they don't sing, no, no
But they haven't found the right song or
Music to their ears

La, la, la, la, la, la
Listen to the wind
Hear the babbling brook
Or drop that bass, bass, oh, oh
Pluck some strings or tap some drums
Listen to a good voice
Or an old, sad, song, oh, oh
Find your music, music
Music to your ears

Up high on the treble clef
Or down low is the bass clef
Flying in between the registers
Or maybe hit a couple of eighth notes, eighth notes
On a good snare drum
Pluck some strings on that guitar
Pull a bow across that violin

La, la, la, la, la, la
Listen to the wind
Hear the babbling brook
Or drop that bass, bass, oh, oh
Pluck some strings or tap some drums
Listen to a good voice
Or an old, sad, song, oh, oh
Find your music, music
Music to your ears

Find your music, music
Music to your
Woah, oh, oh, oh

Listen to the, oh, oh
Hear that, oh, oh
Or drop that, oh, oh
Pluck some, oh, oh, or tap some, oh, oh
Listen to an, oh, oh
Or an, oh, oh, oh
Find your, oh, oh
Music to your ears

Oh, oh, oh
Music to your ears

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Any Last Words?

Any last words?
No, no, you cannot speak
For the world shall show no mercy
Any final requests?
They shan't be honored
For no one takes the time to hear
Any last words

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Weird Nights 3.0 THE FINAL CHAPTER

Trumpet was secretly a little scared. First, French and Bass had disappeared. Then, Trumpet started having the visions.

They were just small glimpses at first. A raging fire. A desolate landscape. A crying mother, clutching the still body of a child. A dried up riverbed. A flooded neighborhood, the homes in ruin.

Then, the visions became accompanied by smells. Burning flesh. Metallic blood. Dry dust. Rotten meat.

Trumpet felt trapped in his own head. The final blow to his sanity, the one that drove him over the edge, were the sounds. Sizzling water. Dry wind. The screams. Of agony, despair, fear, loneliness, broken promises, shattered dreams. More screams. Of victory, fiendish delight, battle.

Trumpet was clutching his ears, curled into the fetal position on the floor of his bedroom, muttering nonstop about the pain, the desolation, the loneliness, the insanity, faster, and faster, and faster, and faster and faster and faster and faster. Trumpet screamed, he cried, he shouted, until his throat was raw, his eyes dry, and his voice ripped apart.

Hunger gnawed at his stomach, but he refused to eat. He didn't want more energy to hear more noises, see more places, smell more odors.

The visions, the sounds, and the noises began to stay longer.

Trumpet was trapped in eternity, inside his own head. Mumbling, screeching, crying, screaming, sobbing, more and more until his own terror swallowed him, scathing him with icy claws. His heart pounded, and every time he heard the thud, thud, thud, Trumpet could see someone being beaten. First, they were men, engaged in a fight. Next, the victim were women, being beaten with long metal poles, covered in dried blood. Before Trumpet snapped, they were children. Young children. Being kicked, bruised, starved. Trumpet was buried alive, every thud of his heart shoveling more and more mania on top of him.

And Trumpet Highnotes snapped.

His brain seemed disconnected from his body. It moved, it pounded, and it screamed. The intensity forced Trumpet to howl, to shriek, to beg mercy from an unwilling master. Trumpet couldn't take it any more. Then Nate Soakreed came to visit him.
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Brad awoke from the most horrifying nightmare he had ever dreamt up. Slowly and shakily, he got out of bed. Men in white hazmat suits swarmed in. Brad shouted and tried to claw through the suits, but he couldn't very well claw through plastic. The men held his arms and legs like Huns. One held a cool metal barrel to Brad's head. The clocked slowed down. The trigger clicked, Brad breathed out, the gunpowder ignited, the bullet spun out of the barrel.

And Brad could dream no more.

Monday, May 18, 2015

There Is A World

There is a world
Far beyond the seas of imagination
There is a world
Closer than the dust on the wind
There is a world
Where choices have only the consequences deserved
There is a world

Where the sun sets on a deep aquamarine sea
A red bubble of healthy blood
On a horizon made of tangerines
Flecked with clouds
Purple lavenders, pink carnations, red poinsettias, white roses
Painted beyond the simple azure sky
There is a world

A world where crime is brought to justice
A world where bullies are bullied back
A world where no one goes to bed hungry at night

A world where navy blue midnight
Doesn't spell crime
A world not bourne on one person's shoulders
Threatening to crush them
A world where the grass is never dead
But not always green

There is a world
A world beyond the sea of desolation
There is a world
A world closer than the screams on the wind
There is world
A world where no one gets away with it
There is a world
A world

There is a world we can always be

Empty Promises

Black hair, blue eyes
The hopeless space between stars
The color of lies
Red gold, silver lines
The hue of hollow pain
Wrapping up and down his arms in empty vines

She broke all of her
Empty promises
Wreaking frost on his soul
He was hurt
By all of her

Empty promises
Stolen Wishes
Bloodthirsty ways
He paid for all of it
Empty promises

They found his body two days later
Covered in silver lines
With no more sunshine
Shining from beneath his scars
Red gold
The hue of empty promises

Stolen wishes
Heaven, sin
Even the hopeless space
Between stars
Like his hair
Now stained
With empty promises

Fire, hell
Sunlight, heaven
Too cold for the color of lies
Akin to his staring eyes
Glassy and filled
With empty promises

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Marvelous

Today was a good day
It was not a hard day
But filled with sweat nonetheless
I thought not about quitting
No one lost
Today was a good day

Today was a fine day
Filled with laughter and cheer
But reality loomed around the corner
I thought not about hurt or hurting
Everyone smiled
Today was a fine day

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Peace

Ignorance
Only bliss in short
Aloofness
The only choice for a hurting heart

Gossip
Only for pinch faced hawks
Rumors
The bane of eternity, just weeds

Pain
The only vector of sweet release
Isolation
A long time friend of hurt

Bravery
Deserts those who need it most
Cowardice
The only way out

Gunshots
Slashing knives
Peace

Freedom

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

The Nightmare Never Ends

Head held high
Looking over a broken city
Wind blowing through the streets
A burning smell racing through the heat
Looking down on a sea of destruction
Everywhere I look, all I see is misery
Everywhere I hear, another innocent life is wasted

And I can't even hear my heartbeat
But I can hear my screams

Darkness light the day
Light darken the night
If I open my eyes
The nightmare never ends
If I open my ears
I'll never see your tears

Another detonation, another terror
Another group claiming for belief
Worst things in the world
Everything I see
Garland
Sandy Hook
ISIS
All justified by belief

And I can't even hear my heartbeat
But I can hear my screams

Politicians promise relief
But all they relieve is our wallets
Looking over a broken country
Wondering when it all will end
When we will bring ourselves to destruction

Darkness light the day
Light darken the night
If I open my eyes
The nightmare never ends
If I open my ears
I'll never see your tears

And I can't even hear my heartbeat
But I can hear my screams

More injustice
Looking over this broken world
Time will never slow
Slowing to a stop
Innovation cannot reach those set in their ways
Their ways
Silence, oppression, ostracism

Another parent abducts their own child
Another shooting
Another 9/11
Another broken country
Another broken world

Friday, April 24, 2015

Sweet Bethany

She hoped he was lying
He wished she was crying

Sweet Bethany trusted too much, too easy
Lying Jonathan knelt at her feet
Down on his knees
And begged for her hand, her sweet, delicate hand
Sweet Bethany gave it to him, too quick
Too easy

Oh, Sweet Bethany, ought your sorrows pierce the sky
Demanding raindrops as fat as can be
And, dear Sweet Bethany,
Hope that Lying Jonathan knows no mercy

Hair as black as the hunters through the night,
For purity and wrong thus entwined in white,
Sweet Bethany on her wedding-day
A beautiful dove not destined for flight
Lying Jonathan in his shroud of guilt,
Wore a tired grey upon the foundation of mistruths he built

Sweet Bethany knew no stronger love than hers for Lying Jonathan
Her skin, milky and fair, flooded pink upon her face
When Lying Jonathan voiced his lies
Behind her innocent back he planned
He plotted
And still Sweet Bethany remained in the darkness, alone in her cries

Oh, Sweet Bethany, ought your sorrows pierce the sky
Demanding raindrops as fat as can be
And, dear Sweet Bethany,
Hope that Lying Jonathan knows no mercy

Sweet Bethany, her skin as waxy as can be
Her raven back hair twisted and woven into braids
Gently resting on her shoulder, lest her wounds be revealed
Lying Jonathan painting sorrow at her casket
Grinning triumph as her rich mahogany vessel
Disappeared under his foundation of lies

Oh, Sweet Bethany, ought your sorrows pierce the sky
Demanding raindrops as fat as can be
And, dear Sweet Bethany,
Hope that Lying Jonathan knows no mercy

Sweet Bethany, once a lover of clouds in the sky,
Resided six feet from fresh air and lovely flowers
And Lying Jonathan lives on
Not even Fate knows why

Sweet Bethany, Sweet Bethany
Sweet Bethany, a garden of love
Sweet Bethany, a flightless dove
Sweet Bethany, Sweet Bethany

Oh, Sweet Bethany, ought your sorrows pierce the sky
Demanding raindrops as fat as can be
And, dear Sweet Bethany,
Hope that Lying Jonathan knows no mercy

Friday, April 3, 2015

Weird Nights 2.5

Bass hadn't seen French in two weeks now. No one had. It was torture to Bass, pure torture. He was wearing himself thin with worry, barely sleeping, barely eating, and constantly searching. His anxiety did not help the fact that Sonia kept insisting that he calm down.

"I can't calm down!" Bass screamed at his sister. "She's out there! She could be hurt! I have to find her!" He insisted, his eyes burning. Sonia looked as though Bass had slapped her. Bass never raised his voice. He had never even yelled at Trumpet, not even when Trumpet had kissed French. But Bass had just yelled at Sonia. He felt terrible, and her face made him feel so guilty that he couldn't breathe. He wanted to apologize, to beg Sonia to forgive him, but his mouth would not form the words. "Maybe she doesn't want to be found." Sonia said in a voice the size of a mouse. Her fear of her brother leaked into her minuscule voice. Bass let go of the tears that choked his throat and burned his eyes. He turned away from Sonia.

Bass was out in the park without another word to Sonia. His tears still waterfalled down his face, dripping to the leaves on the ground. "French!" He screamed.

Why had he kissed her? Why had he been so stupid? Bass sniffled and cracked a stick. Large, black birds with skinny and featherless necks flew up into the sky from somewhere to Bass's right. Curious, Bass jogged to the place where the birds had taken off from.

The river ran its sapphire blue finger through the clearing. On the soft mud of the banks, a perfectly white and meatless skeleton was stuck. Black feathers littered the ground around the skeleton. A silver flash nearly blinded Bass, and he knelt to examine the source.

The bracelet had a small silver heart strung on its chain. Bass's fingers fumbled to open the heart. It snapped open. Bass's heart clenched and he dropped the silver. It was a picture of Bass and French. The bracelet belonged to French.
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She woke up screaming. Her terror level had spiked to the point that she had jumped out of bed. The white sheet was tangled on the floor and the purple comforter was thrown against the wall. An oversized white t-shirt hung off her shoulders and blue yoga pants brushed against her mid-calf. She looked around wildly, whimpering in pain. The girl raised the hem of the shirt to the bottom of her ribs. Her flat stomach bore no marks, no scars, no blood. She was okay. The girl let the hem of her shirt fall. She opened the door to her room and peered into the dark hallway. Cautiously, she padded down the hallway in sock feet. 

The living room was still dark. The early morning light had yet to break through the windows. On the couch, a bulk of twisted quilts had wrapped themselves around the bulky figure of a person. Anxiously, the girl sneaked across the carpet toward the figure.

He was breathing hard in his sleep, like he was in pain. His fingers twitched in his frightened sleep. "Andrew!" The girl hissed. A muscle in Andrew's jaw twitched. The girl gently touched Andrew's jugular, calmly whispering his name. "Andrew, I had another dream." She breathed. Andrew sucked in a sharp gasp and his eyes opened, glazed over in terror. "Holly!" He gasped. His arm flew to catch her wrist. He held it tenderly. "Holly, are you alright?" Andrew's eyes, colorless in the dark, beheld her with the greatest concern. It pained Holly to see him this way. "I'm fine, Andrew. Are you okay?" Her fingers brushed his neck. "I'm okay. You're okay. We're okay." Andrew smiled softly. "If your dad found you in here before he got up, he'd kill me." Holly rolled her eyes. "You're a real dork sometimes." Andrew grinned sideways. "I know. That's why you love me." "Don't bet on that." Holly brushed the skin over his jugular again. Andrew sat up and kissed her cheek.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

A Game of Lies

Don't you know I can't see your face
Or play all of your little games
Don't you know I can't see your cards
But I can see your cheating ways

Don't you know I can't Hold 'Em
Or work with a royal flush
Don't you know poker is a game of lies
And you play poker all the time

Don't you know I can read your poker face
And even when you aren't playing cards
Don't you know I watched you cheat
And I'm hiding a two pair

Friday, March 6, 2015

Weird Nights 2.0

The doctor choked on his own saliva. He had watched as Subject 3R-Justin brutally murdered Subject 3R-Holly. The feeling of helplessness plagued his mind and his throat. His breath was constricted by both his disease and his worry. Subject 3R-Justin would be going for more. He would make a ghost of that town. He had started with Subject 3R-Holly, and the doctor knew he would not stop until the last person was gone. The doctor sneezed. His head pitched forward and his balance shifted. Had he not been sitting, he surely would have fallen. 

The only thing more unsettling than Subject 3R-Justin's actions was Subject 3R-Holly's last words. Instead of calling her killer Nate, she called him Justin. She had asked for an Andrew, whom she knew as Bass. The serum had faded the minutes before her death. Was it her terror? Was it her resignation? What had she seen while knocked out? The doctor sneezed and sent his chair backward a bit. No, it wouldn't be long.
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Frenchie Midrange awoke to silence. Not the kind of silence where there isn't noise going on around him, no, this was not normal. Frenchie could not hear his own breath, or the beating of his own heart. Frenchie could not hear anything. He sat up and was greeted by the rustle of the covers, but nothing else. Nothing. The silence unnerved him to the point of looking around to make sure something wasn't stalking him. What would be, he didn't know.

A sudden stabbing pain gripped his chest. He felt like his heart was being torn in two. Frenchie crumpled to the ground, panting and hugging his chest. His chest was falling apart, falling apart on the inside. Frenchie could not breath, couldn't think, couldn't breathe...

As quickly as it came on, the feeling stopped. Frenchie stood up shakily. His chest seemed to have knit itself back together, but a throbbing pain pulsed to the beat of his heart, directly in the center of his chest. Frenchie put his hand on the epicenter of the pain. That part of his chest felt stone cold, but otherwise no different than it was usually.

Frenchie padded down the hall with bare feet, stopping at the door to French's room. He pressed his ear to the door. He was greeted by yawning silence. Frenchie opened the door, just a crack. The room was empty. The covers on the bed were rumpled and the window was open. Open. French hissed through his nose. What had his sister done now?

The constricting pain surged forth once more, spider webbing through his chest as though it were glass. For a precarious moment, the cracks in Frenchie's chest balanced carefully, then shattered. The glass of his resistance broke away and the pain flooded through his chest. Frenchie found himself on the floor, hugging his chest. Hot, molten glass poured itself into his chest cavity, and Frenchie couldn't breathe.

Like the first time, the pain snapped away as suddenly as it had set upon him. Frenchie felt heavy and full of glass. He stood up shakily. His feet stuck to the ground, weighed down with the glass that had leaked out of his chest. What had happened? Where was French? The spiderwebbing pain threatened to break him at the thought of French.

Frantic, Frenchie pulled on a shirt and jogged outside, breaking the glass in his chest with every step. His socked feet pounded in protest against the sidewalk. The shards of the glass scratched around, and around, and around, attempting to excise Frenchie's heart. "French?" He shouted. "French!" He ran down the sidewalk next to the pitifully unused street. "French! French Midrange!" His throat scratched at him, angry at being used so quickly and so rudely.

Frenchie was all but sprinting in his socked feet, shouting for his sister. He couldn't breathe anymore, and tears attempted to close his throat, to choke him while he was screaming for the only thing that made his life worth living. Frenchie refused to let them fall out of his eyes, refused to let the salt stream down his face and forcing him to get up. "French!" He choked, his vision blurred.

Navigating the town by memory, Frenchie went everywhere he could think of and some places he couldn't; the ration bank, the houses of everyone that lived in Band, the automated salon, the clothing dispension, the library, and the entrance to the park. Choking on his own failure and gripping the now numb soles of his feet, Frenchie debated on getting help before he went to search for his sister in the park. "French!" He quaked in exhaustion, fear, and a strange sense of heavy peace, laden with depression, stagnant rivers of once-clear water, and a grim truth.

And Frenchie Midrange did the heroic thing in that instant.

He fainted.

Friday, February 20, 2015

Train Of Thought


The more I think the more I smile
That awful, awful smile
The more I think another tear falls out of my eye
Dripping into a salty pool
The more I think the more I love
Knowing he could never be mine

The more I think the less I know
What I fell for first
Was it his eyes, steely and mystic?
Was it his ego, ready for anything?
Was it the way he handled everything that seemed so smooth and flawless?
Was it his smirking smile?

The more I think the more I smile
A smile of love unrequited
The more I think another tear slips out of my eye
Collecting on my soaked through pillow
The more I think the more I love
A love that could kill me unreturned

The more I think the less I know
What I like about him so much
His wit, his athleticism, his virtuosity, his height?
His lean muscle, the slightly fuller shape to his lips?
The way he rocks slightly back and forth and concentrates totally on his music?
The sarcasm that is so often directed at me, or the snippets where he's calm?

The more I think the more I hurt
It's not healthy at all
The more I think the less I cry
All the tears are gone
The more I think the more I'm sure 

Friday, February 6, 2015

Lone Warrior

The girl glared at the men holding guns trained upon her head. She threw back her head and laughed. "I regret nothing! I hope this rebellion ends...and Silver Rim rises!" She shouted deliriously. Her bronze locks flew around her head and stuck to her sweat soaked face. "Kill me and you'll find a martyr instead of a wolf." Her insanity filtered from her expression. Her eyes were black in the moonlight. "I've said my bit. Shoot me like you do to all of your problems. Silver Rim!" She closed her eyes tightly, almost like she was wishing herself to sleep. 

The person directly in front of her, clad in a black jumpsuit with a mask over the eyes pulled the hammer back on his pistol. "In the order of King Arthur, ruler of this country of Tejas, I give this criminal, guilty of treason, murder, attempted assassination, and instigation of a rebellion, the ultimate penalty." The slack on the trigger lessened. "She was known as the Lone Warrior, a prowling wolf. She was simply another traitor. I, General Wesly E. Griffin, in the name of King Arthur, shall execute Breileigh Hazelthorn." The trigger became taut. 

A loud bang and a bright flash occurred in that next second. When the gun smoke cleared, two bodies lied upon the ground. 
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SIX YEARS EARLIER 
Breileigh gulped. She knew it was coming. She would have to fight. All the children from her Sector did. Sector 5, just like the other four, had Panem every year. Bread and circuses. Breileigh shuddered. She have to fight things. Terrible things. No children were allowed to watch Panem. No one talked about it. All Breileigh knew was that she would have to fight. The winner got to live. The loser was mercilessly executed. Painfully.

Panem always had 15 year olds. Always. Breileigh found herself in the holding cell, along with several other teens. The trainers would come soon. Each trainer took on four teens. At the end of Panem, two would have survived, if not less. Breileigh knew she had about a week. That was the standard preparation period. 

The white walls of the cell made Breileigh uncomfortable. One wall was entirely glass. None of the teens dared to touch it. Rumors, like little weeds, stated that it was electrified. No one wanted to find out.

Breileigh Hazelthorn could not remember when she began to live with the wolves. She remembered back, far back, but her memory abruptly snapped away, like a solid wall of stones had been placed there. She remembered being but one year old, still a squirming infant, and being found by the wolves. She remembered the Wolfspeak, as clear as her own thoughts, and she remembered replying. Breileigh thus became Nameless Windsong. The wolves took her in, raised her in the savage ways of wolf, taught her honor, nobility, and cunning. And then the Raid had destroyed her life.

Breileigh remembered the Raid like she knew the Wolfspeak, with a natural understanding and clarity not found in the nature she was raised in. Breileigh remembered her shining hair become fur, she remembered the muscles cording along her body. She had lost Breileigh then, she was but Nameless Windsong, brassy furred, viciously large, and soft as down. Nameless Windsong had snarled, a snarl full of rage, of fury, of warning...and of weakness. The Tsar of the other pack, whom insisted upon being called Tsar, Breileigh reflected, had leapt upon Nameless Windsong's body, his claws tearing her soft and thin skin like her own fingernails ripped apart leaves. Nameless Windsong had collapsed, the world becoming darker, darker, darker...

The glass wall fell away. Three graying people with slumped shoulders and haggard faces shone the black spotlight of their hollow eyes into the cell. The first one, a woman so sallow her bones practically poked through her skin, and scrapes adorned every joint. A strange blue fluid leaked from the visible orifices on her body. What this a Trainer? She looked like a Feddie, Breileigh mentally gagged.

The Feddie grabbed the wrists of four frightened teens, and they disappeared out of the wall, each cringing as they passed through the once-barrier.

Breileigh had heard the rumors. If one lost the fights of Panem while the people of the Castle watched and ate, the teen would be taken before a jury, found guilty of weakness, and put to death. No one but the people from the Castle knew what horrific tortures awaited the felon beyond the court. Some said the losing side was fed to ravenous wolves. Others said they were left in a dark room to go crazy. Some said the losers were forced to become part of the Castle itself, as a lowly servant, and that was the best the losing side would ever do. Of course, rumor had it. And Breileigh had never trusted rumors.

The final Feddie grabbed Breileigh's wrist. She cried out in a whimper she had not uttered since her days in the wolf den, when the fox had attacked. Breileigh's pack brother, Lone Warrior, had been taken. The whole pack had known he was dead, but did not mourn. That was not the way of wolf. That was not how Breileigh grew up. Lone Warrior was only ever seen by his pack on one separate occasion: the Raid.

The Feddie led Breileigh and three other teens down a hallway. As each opened doorway yawned past, Breileigh got more and more nervous. her teeth cut her lip. Breileigh could not, would not, be capable of becoming Nameless Windsong here. there was no water, no sweet forest air. Nameless Windsong would go upon a rage that she could not win. Not here.

Nameless Windsong defied the laws of wolf teachings. She was soft, she mourned, and she did not fight. Breileigh knew that, for Nameless Windsong's ears and tail, Nameless Windsong was not wolf. Nameless Windsong was human. Humans did not belong in the forest. Humans belonged in the caves. In the Panem. In the Sectors. In the Castle. Breileigh did not belong here, there, anywhere. Breileigh was a wolf, howling to the stars, begging them to come out, to hide the moon and it's destruction. Breileigh was the savage growl man scurried from. Breileigh was wolf. Breileigh was wild. Breileigh was the bearer of Wolfspeak. Breileigh was the wolf.

The light in the hallway waned to barely a thing, hazing the lines the quickly ramshackling hall bore. The Feddie brought Breileigh deeper and deeper into the building, while the air choked and squeezed its way back, speaking to Breileigh in a language older than the forests Breileigh yearned to flow through, ears back and tail flying, no longer human but wolf. Danger, run away, the rushing breeze whispered, deep in Breileigh's ears. The warning became more and more frantic, crescendoing to a feral, terrified howl carried by the wind of a pup without a mother. WhoooOOOoooOoooo...

Suddenly, the hall opened into a large, brightly lit cavern. The sudden light hacked into Breileigh's eyes with a hiss. She growled, her voice reverberating throughout the cavern like the wolf she knew yearned to break free. The Feddie released its death grip on Breileigh's wrist. Blood rushed into her hand, bringing forth a whimper to cut off the growl. She looked at the other three teens.

"Fight." The Feddie's voice scratched through the rock. "Fight."

Monday, January 12, 2015

No Quiero Entender


No quiero entender. I don’t want to understand. I just want to take. I just want to keep. I don’t want to release.

No quiero entender. I don’t want to understand. I will take. I will keep. I won’t release.
              The Boss Man was always watching, always raising quota. Always. Wanting. More. Of course, the Boss Man sent me to this lovely hellhole known as Texas. The Boss Man said he was about to break loose here. He was about to reign this place.
              The Boss Man sent me to Vel-As-Co. Velasco was no job for me. Shots rang out. The rebels, the little Texans, against the homeland, the big Mexicans. I had seen into the future, just because that’s my job, my not-so-much life. I would have smiled, if I wanted to be seen. Gun after gun, bullet after bullet, shot after shot, until the shooting stopped. The Mexicans left. Up and left. They lost their Legos, got mad, and went home. Just a little skirmish. Just. A. Little. Battle.

The Boss Man, relentless and cruel, forced me into a new place. Gonzales. Gon-Zal-Es. The Boss Man said this was where he’d start. This was where he’d end one of my sires. Peace. Harmony. The Boss Man grinned his awful sneer, his cold, hard, smirk. He slapped me on my thin back and nearly sent me sprawling. But he didn’t.

The Boss Man sent them in. The Mexicans. They tried to take the most trivial thing from the Tiny Texans, their tiny tinny cannon.   Eighteen men. Eighteen Tiny Texans. They were all that tried to protect their protection. The Mexicans advanced. The Texans fired. Chaos broke like a rubber band. Snap!

The stinging pain the rubber band left on me wasn’t allowed long before I felt the tugging. The pull. Like a dream, hazy, numb, and unclear, I felt myself being pulled toward the epicenter. Through the fog of my brain my feet found a man. And he was covered in a deep crimson.

I knelt down and softly brushed his cheek with my hand. He was still warm and his skin softly gave under my butterfly-like touch. The man’s face was peaceful, without lines or creases of stress or worry. I gently brushed some hair out of his face.

The warmth he lent my fingers was beginning to fade. Reluctant to take him but knowing I must, I slipped my arms under him. He was light enough for me to cradle him like a baby. I took one last deep breath over the spot he had laid, and turned away. I could feel him shrinking, deaging. I watched his face. The sharp contours gave to softer lines. His hair went from brown to fuzzy beige. Finally, I held a baby in my arms.

This baby didn’t breathe, didn’t blink, didn’t cry. In his chest there was a gaping hole, the size of the baby’s fist. The crimson no longer rushed. The baby was frozen in time. “Ave Atque Vale.” I whispered, and brought my hands into a ball. The baby shrank into my fists.

I opened my fists and wisps of smoke escaped from my fingers. They were mostly light blue, dusted with gold. There was one wisp that was pure black. His evil, his demon. This man was a good man, but every man has a dark side. Every man has a demon will never leave him, not even in death.

It was purely business. Every time, every single time, it was a baby I shrank into. Every time I let go of the wisps that was that baby. Not every time were all the wisps blue.

And thus Gonzales was done. The Tiny Texans won, by what cards, I do not know. But the Boss Man does. He always knows. And he always instigates.

All too soon I found myself at BĂ©xar. Bay-Har. The pull was strong here. I lost count this battle. A tiny Texan by the name of Ben Milam was the most notable to me. Who would follow him, if they knew he would meet me? Ben Milam had twin streams of black wisps. The thought of what he could’ve done made me shudder.

The Alamo was almost too much. The good old boy, General Travis, his line, Jim Bowie. I collected them all. The tiny Texans’ last stand turned many into wisps. Black wisps, blue wisps, and gold wisps. Many gold wisps. Mexicans, too. A lot of them. Three sole survivors. Susanna Dickinson, her daughter Angela, and Travis’ slave. The whirlwind was too much for me.

Goliad was awful. Go-Li-Add. Every last Texan, every single prisoner of war, executed. I held so many in my arms. I wanted relief. I wanted to end it. No quiero entendar. I was imprisoned. But I don’t want to understand.

The Boss Man never knew what the future held. He enjoyed the bloody conflict. I made plans for suicide I couldn’t commit. I only enjoyed the release of grace and mercy. This was cold blooded murder.

San Jacinto was the Boss Man’s demise. He would not get release. He only lay in wait. After the deciding battle.  Within 18 minutes, I had released so many sleeping soldiers, murdered in their beds. The Texans didn’t win that war. They only cheated the checkers. But their war was just getting started.

No quiero entendar. I don’t want to understand.

My job was a lonely one.

No quiero entendar.

I was the true killer.

No quiero entendar.

But that didn’t matter.

I am, I was, I always will be Nakir.

No quiero entendar.

Weird Nights: Night 1.75

Trumpet liked being wet. The rain was magical to him, one of the only aspects that wasn't controlled by whoever put them here. Trumpet sat outside in his yard, savoring the selcouth rain. He knew his sister would make him come inside, because she had to clean the house and Trumpet had a nasty habit of dripping everywhere.

While he was thinking, Trumpet thought of earlier. He kept doing that to people. He got them all riled up, ready to fight, calmed them down, then made them mad. Trumpet would always laugh after that. He was a jerk, and he knew it. His favorite person to make mad was Frenchie Highbrass. Frenchie got really mad, really fast.

But Frenchie was a poor fighter, to Trumpet, at least. Frenchie's sister fought better than he did. Trumpet knew, because he liked to aggravate them. Trumpette was calling him, Trumpet heard vaguely. He sighed.
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The doctor sneezed again. The test subjects were unaware of his existence. But he knew them. The doctor had followed this particular test group, 3R1N, since their infancy. He studied their dynamics more than their immunity. He knew that immunity was genetic, and their was nothing Europe could do to save those who weren't immune. But they hadn't pulled the plug on the operation. This was the only thing feeding their families, caring for their children. So the doctor stayed.

The rain had angered the creators of the experiment, but the doctor didn't care. He sneezed again. Subject 3R-Holly and Subject 3R-Andrew were falling in love, he knew. He knew that Subject 3R-Ethan would try to hurt Subject 3R-Andrew for loving what the serum made his sister. The doctor also knew that Subject 3R-Johnathan was fighting his serum. But he didn't care. The doctor sneezed again. It unsettled him deeply on the inside. It wouldn't be long now.

The doctor knew one more thing that he wished he could change. Subject 3R-Justin was planning to kill Subject 3R-Holly, and the doctor couldn't stop it. He sneezed again.
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Bass knocked on French's door. As usual, Frenchie answered. "Oh, hi Bass. What's up?" Bass couldn't help being disappointed. He recovered himself quickly and coughed, his change of expression masked. "I was wondering if you and French wanted to come to the whole Town Feast that shows up in the park every week. I don't think French has been feeling well lately. Is she better?" Bass talked too much, or so he thought.

A shadow crossed Frenchie's face. "No, she isn't feeling any better. I think Trumpet gave her germs or something." Frenchie tensed a fist. Bass didn't think Frenchie knew it. "Knock his lights out for me, would ya?" Frenchie smiled. His fist relaxed. "No, but I'll talk to him. He's a jerk." Bass forced a smile. He was disappointed that French was 'sick', but he was hurt because he knew she was faking because of him. "Thanks. Punch him for me." Frenchie laughed. Revenge was his thing. Bass preferred to talk it out.

"I'll work something out." Bass nodded. "See you later, Frenchie." "Bye, Bass." Frenchie smiled and shut the door as Bass turned and walked down the path and back to the sidewalk. Bass sighed and walked down the street. Maybe he would stop at the corner store and pick up some of Sonia and his rations. He didn't know.

Bass put away the rations and glanced at the clock. 4:30. He sighed and grabbed a jacket off a coat hook. The zipper whacked his little finger and Bass said a most unpleasant word. Well, no one can be an angel all the time.
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Nate Soakreed lounged in the grass, cherishing the warm sunlight entrapping his body. He was full, having eaten the hot dogs that magically appeared in the park every week on Thursday at 4:59 exact. The sun was still quite lofty in the sky, although the clouds were urging it down, and the sun was losing the fight. Nate sat for a long time, watching the struggle. People called to him, but he waved them off. At one point, Clari told him she was going home and not to stay out to late. Nate nodded, not really listening to her.

As the sun started to bleed from the wounds oh-so-generously applied by the clouds, Nate felt himself slipping away. Then, the monster came out to play.

Nate stared at the read streaks glinting through the sky and thought of how delicious it would be to see those streaks streaming through the emerald green grass of the park. He had someone in mind. He knew who would make the most impact. Oh, yes, Nate Soakreed knew. Nate slipped his hand into his pocket. A crumpled piece of paper, wrinkled with age and wear, greeted his fingers with a sharp edged paper cut. Nate cried out and jerked his fingers to his mouth.

The sound of Nate's pain sounded hollow, like a habit. That's when Nate knew. He was no longer himself. Nate was gone. The monster that came out to play wanted more than to play. The monster wanted to live, and he wanted to live as Nate Soakreed.

Nate stood up and brushed his shorts off. He didn't care about the dirt sticking to his legs. That was one thing about Nate that Clari hated. Nate would clean his clothes but had to be forced to shower. The dirt seemed to make him feel masked and comfortable. As Nate took one last glance at the dying sun, mortally wounded by the clouds but recovering to rise again on the morrow, Nate Soakreed spoke of his plans aloud. No one heard him.

Or so he thought.
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French gasped in horror, then slapped a hand over her mouth. He couldn't hear her, not after what she knew now. French turned to run, to go home and tell Frenchie, but she turned and tripped on a rock. Her body landed with a thud and she made a terrified squeak come out of her mouth. Nate turned his head sharply toward French, and she got up. She started to run, slapping her feet onto the hard cement path, but Nate was faster.

Nate was faster.

French's feet pounded the pavement, her panic rising in her chest. Her breath came in ragged gasps. Her adrenaline shrieked through her veins with a desperately feral call. She heard his heavily thudding feet racing up behind her. French would've screamed, she would have cried out, but her breathed whistled out of her throat, with no possibility of creating sound.

French was thrown to the ground, scraping up her arms, her knees, and her cheeks. Her blood ran down her face. French twisted frantically, trying to scream, but the breath was knocked out of her body. She struggled violently. "Shh, shh, shh, it's okay. Only a few hours longer..." Nate clamped his hand firmly over her mouth. French tried struggling, but the sheer fatigue of her sprint for her life, the pain of the scrapes on her sensitive skin, and Nate's strength tired her and her struggles stopped. She pleaded to Nate with her terror filled eyes.
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(WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUGELY GRAPHIC SCENE COMING UP! If someone would have a problem with you reading this, don't. Don't get me in trouble.)
Nate felt a rush of hungry satisfaction when he saw the blood streaming down her pitifully scraped up cheeks. She was crying blood, and Nate knew he could not go back. Not now. Nate clamped a hand over her mouth, so when she regained her breath, she wouldn't scream. Her breath dampened his hand, but he would clean up later.

Her bloody tears were smeared all over her face, which was flushed from exertion, and her eyes seemed to beg him for mercy. Nate smiled, baring his teeth in a vicious and feral gesture. French's eyes widened and she tried to scream. Nate's hand muffled the sound enough to see that it did not get past his own ears. His oxytitious precautions would serve him well, only if he was intelligent enough to use them.

"Shh, shh, it's okay. Only a few hours longer..." Nate soothed solicitously, although French began to struggle weakly once more. Nate picked her up like a baby. "Shh, shh, just a few more hours." He purred. French tried to hit him. Nate hit her on the base of the skull. Before she could cry out in pain or surprise, French slumped unconscious. Nate's arms shook with the increased effort he exerted holding her up. He started to walk. He hoped he didn't drop her. That would be messy. Very, very messy.
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French spiraled away from the world and she fell. The air rushing past her body was cool and comfortable. She wasn't bleeding anymore, nor did she hurt or feel exhausted. It was almost as if her vigor was renewed, but she was falling. Suddenly, her feet came to a feather-light rest on the ground, like a leaf swaying its way to the ground from a tree.

The world she stepped into was soft and hazy, with no straight or sharp edges. She was in what looked like an ordinary living room, with two faux-leather couches and a very brown bookcase piled neatly with books. She looked around her. The absence of a door to the room struck her as odd.She glanced upward. The ceiling yawned away to darkness. If there was no door, maybe she would have to fly out. After all, she had fallen into this room.

"French." The voice reverberated throughout the room. It seemed to come from everywhere. French looked around, trying to pinpoint the source, but it was useless. "French, French, French..." It chanted, on and on. French's face got cold, and very wet. She tried to rub her eyes, but her hands were lumps of lead, dead at her sides. She couldn't move, and the room faded away, the hazy lines becoming blackness. French was knocked down to her back, and her pain crept back.

"French." The voice was Nate's, trying to rouse her. He had apparently stuck her face in the stream that slithered through the park with glassy sapphire water. French opened her eyes and was blinded by the stark white full moon. As her vision came back, the moon faded to a silvery glow, hostile and aloof.

Nate stepped into her vision, blocking out the stars. His left hand seemed too long, too sharp, and too...one fingered? French's heart pounded. What was he going to do to her?
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Nate saw her eyes flash and knew she was awake. Her bloody tears had long since dried, and the residue washed from her face when he put her in the brook to wake her up. He clutched the handle of the kitchen knife he had taken and hidden here. There was something special about this spot.

It was a small clearing between the trees and bushes, backed by the creek. In times past, Nate had come here to kill small things, watching their small lives washed away by the water. He loved the way their blood had felt, rushing through his hands, warmer than the knife he had hidden to kill them. The handle was always warm. He held it while the animals struggled, then slashed their necks and watched the blood well up and stain the animal's feathers or fur until the light faded from their eyes and they moved no more. Then, Nate dumped their bodies in the brook for the fish to dispose of. Nate liked it that way. He never got caught, not even when the bones washed up on the shore weeks later. Oh, yes, Nate liked it that way.

But now he wanted bigger prey.

Nate knelt by French's side, making soothing sounds. "French, it'll be okay. Just a few more minutes, and you will hurt no more." French quaked when he reached a hand out to touch a scrape on her cheek. She bit her lip, and her face betrayed her torture. "Wh-what's in your hand?" Her voice had taken on a high note, and her terror shone in her eyes like a second moon. "Shh, shh, it will help you. Do you have anything you want to say?" Nate brushed his fingers over the scrapes on her arm, trailing them lightly over the raw skin.

"What are you going to do to me?" She asked in a terrified whisper. Nate smiled sadly, shadowing parts of his face. Nate stroked her scraped up cheek again. "I am going to help you. Just a few more minutes, and it will all be over. It will all be gone." Nate promised. He told her to stay where she was, but, in all honesty, she wasn't going anywhere. She would never go anywhere again.

Nate retrieved the rope and a long strip of cloth he had hidden beforehand in the bushes. The small sheathe he kept his knife in, crudely improvised using an old shirt, was stiff and black. Did that normally happen to white shirts you keep murder knives in? Nate wasn't sure.

When he returned to his prey, French had sat up and drawn her knees to her chest. Nate pointedly ignored her whimpers.

"French, can I see your hands please?" Nate asked flatly. "No." She whined. Her voice betrayed the tears her eyes hid. Nate cursed under his breath. "French." He demanded louder. "I need to see your hands." French's muscles tensed. Well, this is perfect, Nate thought.

Nate got down on his knees beside her. "French." He whispered. "Your hands." French didn't respond. Nate gently rested his knife on the ground and grabbed her wrists. French strained to pull her hands back, but Nate held them firmly and quickly bound her hands together. He let go of her arms and she pulled them to her, quaking and crying. Nate shook his head.

Her feet were easier to restrain. He bound together her ankles with a quick box knot and stepped back. The long strip of cloth still dangled from his hands. French looked pitiful and powerless. Nate almost cried out in a feral growl, and the rush of dominance plagued his stance.

"French." His voice took on a growling note. "Look at the river." French kept her eyes on her knees. Nate shook his head. "That was your decision." He crawled behind her and tied the strip of cloth around her head and through her mouth. Nate sensed that French was numb to terror. She would fight no more.

"Shh, shh, shh. It's okay, French. Just a few more seconds, and it will all be over. All over." Nate drew the last two words out, adding vibrato and a decrescendo to his tone. French stopped shaking. "Where's Andrew?" She asked. "Justin, where is Andrew?" Her voice was very small, and she seemed to have the aura of a child in her words. Some of that was probably the gag.

Nate shook his head. "Andrew is waiting for you. I will take you to Andrew." He promised. "Just close your eyes. It'll be all right. Just close your-" Nate picked up the knife and shoved the point through French's stomach.

Her skin gave away like paper, tearing with a wet ripping sound. Her muscle tore silently and her blood welled out in rivers. French's blood cascaded over his hands, warm and beautiful. French gave a choked gasp and tears ran down her face. Nate jerked the knife through her stomach, cutting in completely open. Her guts spilled out, all over Nate. Nate relished the heat of her agony.

Nate jumped back. He took his knife, black, like his soul, and slashed open the skin on her legs. More blood, a delicious amount of lukewarm life spilling all over him. He shivered with excitement and the world went silent. Nate heard his own heartbeat, fluttering like a feather caught in a fan, and nothing else. French's mouth was open and her body was convulsing. Nate lashed out with his knife, cutting open her arms. More blood, more beautiful blood came pouring out of her skin and drenching Nate in a red coat of psychotic ecstasy.

Her convulses got weaker and Nate knew it was time. He lunged for her throat. His bestial urges guided him, not his knife. Nate ripped out her throat with his teeth. The warm metal filling his mouth was delicious, so filling, yet so hungry. Nate knew he howled in a wolf like cry of victory. French stopped moving. Nate just immersed himself in her blood, sweet and red. His rush of insane happiness buzzing on his high, Nate unceremoniously hauled her body and dumped it into the tributary. Still shivering from his sociopathic high, Nate sheathed his knife in the old shirt. He had some cleaning up to do.

Nate licked French's blood off his lips.

FOR EVERYONE THAT SKIPPED THAT
Nate killed French, and then dumped her body in the river.